Muck that Makes my Heart Full

“Keep your fingers OFF of the windows or you’ll be cleaning them when we get home!”

My father’s voice rings in my ears as I trace the condensation with my fingers, the water making perfect happy faces.

Why can’t I draw on the window?


Looking back in my review mirror I see tiny fingers tracing circles on the window, her arms just long enough to reach.

She stretches as far as she can in her car seat, and giggles when the wind blows her blond whispy hair, a smile as big as her face.

Wasn’t it only a few months ago that I felt her kick me from inside my enormous belly?

Didn’t we bring her home from the hospital just a few short weeks ago?

Her blue eyes meet mine as she points to the drops on the glass, “whas that?”

“That’s how big you are!” I tell her, smiling my biggest smile.


Merging into traffic I check my blind spot and turn my music up. I enjoy my drive to work after I’ve dropped my daughter off at daycare, and I settle in with a warm coffee in my hand.

As I pull out to pass slower traffic I turn to check my blind spot and am greeted with a collage of swirls and lines made by a tiny hand.

Dirty dots and grimy whirls create a cloud of muck that makes my heart full.

Why can’t I draw on the window?

You can!

Because then I will have a part of you all day long.

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18 Responses to Muck that Makes my Heart Full
  1. Alison@Mama Wants This
    May 30, 2012 | 8:48 am

    Oh that’s so sweet Leighann. I love the last line – perfect.

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 3, 2012 | 5:02 pm

      Thank you Alison! I am so grateful to be a mom… especially after all of the crap I’ve been through

  2. katery
    May 30, 2012 | 9:30 am

    since my husband travels for work, whenever i was wearing flip flops in his car i used to take them off and leave little toe prints on his windshield. i thought it was something he would find endearing when he saw while away on business, a way to remember me, to have a piece of me with him. he did not see it that way. he does not care for toe prints on his windshield, but i know it still made him think of me when he saw them 🙂

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 3, 2012 | 5:01 pm

      What a cute way to keep you with him! Even if maybe, at first, he didn’t see the reasoning, I’m sure he thought of you whenever he saw them and was happy.

  3. Nic
    May 30, 2012 | 9:38 am

    Awwwwwwwwwwwwee love this!!!

  4. Iza Trapani
    May 30, 2012 | 12:06 pm

    I love this!! Good for you for turning a negative memory into something positive!

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 3, 2012 | 5:00 pm

      I’m very lucky to be a mom.
      Those finger prints are great reminders.

  5. Amber
    May 30, 2012 | 3:51 pm

    I never get after my kids for doing that either. I love when they write little notes on the window to me. It makes me smile.

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 3, 2012 | 4:57 pm

      I can’t wait until my daughter can write notes. Unless it’s rude ones like “pooh”.. LOL

  6. Rach (DonutsMama)
    May 30, 2012 | 4:27 pm


    I love to see Donut’s little paw prints on my kitchen appliances. Reminds me of how tiny she still is.

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 3, 2012 | 4:57 pm

      Yes! And that they are OURS! We made them..
      How lucky we are.

  7. Jess
    May 31, 2012 | 2:20 pm

    It’s the little things in life.

  8. Galit Breen
    June 1, 2012 | 10:17 pm

    Such a beautiful merge of how we were raised, to how we are raising.

    Lovely, you.

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 3, 2012 | 4:28 pm

      It’s funny how we are now taught to take time, enjoy the moment, enjoy our children. Our parents, I don’t think, were told this info.

  9. Nikky44
    June 2, 2012 | 1:52 pm

    That is so sweet!! Beautiful post!

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 3, 2012 | 4:27 pm

      Thank you Nikky! I’m so grateful for her.

  10. Robin @ Farewell, Stranger
    June 3, 2012 | 11:22 am

    Love this. Totally, totally love it.

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 3, 2012 | 4:26 pm

      Thank you! I love that she is really starting to communicate and be hilarious at it.

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