Are You Worried?

Does it scare you.

When her face contorts and her eyes look lost?

When her smile fades and she stares off past you, into a world you aren’t invited; one of dark shadows, ugly thoughts, and nightmares?

Do you get angry?

As she screams in your face.

Because her anxiety has taken control and you’re the person she trusts most in the world. You are her safety, her anchor, and you will pull her into your warmth and wash the daemons away.

Are you confused?

At her lack of control and concentration.

Where she used to be organized, attentive, and full of life she’s now consumed with anxiety and sleepless nights.

Are you frustrated?

With the girl who used to bounce through the door with a funny story, exuberance shooting from her finger tips and a smile wide across her face.

Lost now in endless apologies, med trials, and mood changes.

Are you worried?

That she’ll never return.

That she’s lost forever in this huge shift that has changed your life and hers?

So is she.

 

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28 Responses to Are You Worried?
  1. Leigh Ann
    June 19, 2012 | 10:25 pm

    Big hugs, friend. You’ll pull through. I know you will.

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 20, 2012 | 7:21 pm

      You’re so great! Thank you Leigh Ann.. hugs to you.

  2. Alison@Mama Wants This
    June 19, 2012 | 11:46 pm

    Oh you. I love you. You will get through this. You will. Have faith.

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 20, 2012 | 7:20 pm

      I love you too Alison!! xoxoxo

  3. Kimberly
    June 20, 2012 | 12:03 am

    You will get through this. You are strong. Sending you hugs my friend.

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 20, 2012 | 7:20 pm

      Thank you sweet mama! xoxoxoxox
      Hope you are well.

  4. Robbie
    June 20, 2012 | 12:57 am

    I am worried but i know you have unbelievable strength to get thru this.

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 20, 2012 | 7:19 pm

      Thank you Robbie. I try to keep telling myself that.

  5. Angel
    June 20, 2012 | 9:50 am

    Coming by from PYHO. This is beautiful and something I have done myself. Dealing with past abuses that came back to haunt me in my present. It was not a fun ride, but I am here on the other side and stronger now. Sending you hugs and strength to get through it.

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 20, 2012 | 7:18 pm

      It’s a long road and getting on the other side of a mental illness is hard.

  6. Suzanna Kellye
    June 20, 2012 | 12:17 pm

    This blog is proof that you are a survivor, not a victim. Hang tight, girl. You can win over the beast!

  7. Kir
    June 20, 2012 | 12:44 pm

    First, that is a beautiful LOVE letter to your man, A wonderful confession.

    Lee-Lee (cause that is what I call you in my head..did you know that?) you are such a strong, amazing woman. I know it’s scary to think that you might never find that other girl inside yourself again, but you have to remember that if she was there once, she can’t leave. She is just hunkered down and waiting for the right time to emerge.

    I have FAITH & BELIEF in the healing power of LOVE and so that is what I’m sending you, lots and lots and lots of love. All the other stuff, you already have inside you girlfriend.

    love you, BIG
    xo

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 20, 2012 | 7:17 pm

      What a sweet nickname!
      You are so wonderful and I love your comments. They make me feel so loved and like my writing is worth it.

  8. Shell
    June 20, 2012 | 1:31 pm

    Oh, girl.

    You’ll get through this!

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 20, 2012 | 7:16 pm

      Thanks Shell. I’m still fighting

  9. katery
    June 20, 2012 | 4:19 pm

    i should have my husband read this.

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 20, 2012 | 7:14 pm

      Yes…
      Have you written something for him?

  10. Jenny
    June 20, 2012 | 4:23 pm

    Huge hugs. Sending you so much love. You are a fighter and a survivor. You will make it through this.

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 20, 2012 | 7:13 pm

      Thank you so much Jenny! xoxoxo

  11. Mark
    June 20, 2012 | 5:56 pm

    Crazy girls are a Gay Man’s best Friend!
    m.

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 20, 2012 | 7:13 pm

      I need a Gay best friend!

  12. Andrea
    June 21, 2012 | 9:58 am

    Hugs, my sweet friend. I have not had a chance to write back to your comment over at my place but have been thinking about you. This was so beautifully written it brought tears to my eyes. I think of you and want to run across the border with huge hugs. And cookies. Or pancakes, as I’m making some right now. Sending you love and loads of strength. xox I adore you.

  13. Amber
    June 21, 2012 | 10:33 am

    Beautifully written. As I read this I could picture this emotion by emotion in my mind. Hugs..

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 24, 2012 | 9:31 pm

      you are such a great friend Amber! Thank you for always being here.

  14. Michelle
    June 21, 2012 | 4:27 pm
  15. Sarcasm Goddess
    June 24, 2012 | 8:37 pm

    Love you, girl. You WILL survive this.

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 24, 2012 | 9:07 pm

      Thank you!! Love you’re positive attitude.
      Please send bacon and shoes

  16. nikky44
    June 26, 2012 | 5:44 am

    My answer is YES to all your questions 🙁

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Are You Worried?

Does it scare you.

When her face contorts and her eyes look lost?

When her smile fades and she stares off past you, into a world you aren’t invited; one of dark shadows, ugly thoughts, and nightmares?

Do you get angry?

As she screams in your face.

Because her anxiety has taken control and you’re the person she trusts most in the world. You are her safety, her anchor, and you will pull her into your warmth and wash the daemons away.

Are you confused?

At her lack of control and concentration.

Where she used to be organized, attentive, and full of life she’s now consumed with anxiety and sleepless nights.

Are you frustrated?

With the girl who used to bounce through the door with a funny story, exuberance shooting from her finger tips and a smile wide across her face.

Lost now in endless apologies, med trials, and mood changes.

Are you worried?

That she’ll never return.

That she’s lost forever in this huge shift that has changed your life and hers?

So is she.

 

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28 Responses to Are You Worried?
  1. Leigh Ann
    June 19, 2012 | 10:25 pm

    Big hugs, friend. You’ll pull through. I know you will.

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 20, 2012 | 7:21 pm

      You’re so great! Thank you Leigh Ann.. hugs to you.

  2. Alison@Mama Wants This
    June 19, 2012 | 11:46 pm

    Oh you. I love you. You will get through this. You will. Have faith.

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 20, 2012 | 7:20 pm

      I love you too Alison!! xoxoxo

  3. Kimberly
    June 20, 2012 | 12:03 am

    You will get through this. You are strong. Sending you hugs my friend.

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 20, 2012 | 7:20 pm

      Thank you sweet mama! xoxoxoxox
      Hope you are well.

  4. Robbie
    June 20, 2012 | 12:57 am

    I am worried but i know you have unbelievable strength to get thru this.

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 20, 2012 | 7:19 pm

      Thank you Robbie. I try to keep telling myself that.

  5. Angel
    June 20, 2012 | 9:50 am

    Coming by from PYHO. This is beautiful and something I have done myself. Dealing with past abuses that came back to haunt me in my present. It was not a fun ride, but I am here on the other side and stronger now. Sending you hugs and strength to get through it.

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 20, 2012 | 7:18 pm

      It’s a long road and getting on the other side of a mental illness is hard.

  6. Suzanna Kellye
    June 20, 2012 | 12:17 pm

    This blog is proof that you are a survivor, not a victim. Hang tight, girl. You can win over the beast!

  7. Kir
    June 20, 2012 | 12:44 pm

    First, that is a beautiful LOVE letter to your man, A wonderful confession.

    Lee-Lee (cause that is what I call you in my head..did you know that?) you are such a strong, amazing woman. I know it’s scary to think that you might never find that other girl inside yourself again, but you have to remember that if she was there once, she can’t leave. She is just hunkered down and waiting for the right time to emerge.

    I have FAITH & BELIEF in the healing power of LOVE and so that is what I’m sending you, lots and lots and lots of love. All the other stuff, you already have inside you girlfriend.

    love you, BIG
    xo

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 20, 2012 | 7:17 pm

      What a sweet nickname!
      You are so wonderful and I love your comments. They make me feel so loved and like my writing is worth it.

  8. Shell
    June 20, 2012 | 1:31 pm

    Oh, girl.

    You’ll get through this!

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 20, 2012 | 7:16 pm

      Thanks Shell. I’m still fighting

  9. katery
    June 20, 2012 | 4:19 pm

    i should have my husband read this.

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 20, 2012 | 7:14 pm

      Yes…
      Have you written something for him?

  10. Jenny
    June 20, 2012 | 4:23 pm

    Huge hugs. Sending you so much love. You are a fighter and a survivor. You will make it through this.

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 20, 2012 | 7:13 pm

      Thank you so much Jenny! xoxoxo

  11. Mark
    June 20, 2012 | 5:56 pm

    Crazy girls are a Gay Man’s best Friend!
    m.

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 20, 2012 | 7:13 pm

      I need a Gay best friend!

  12. Andrea
    June 21, 2012 | 9:58 am

    Hugs, my sweet friend. I have not had a chance to write back to your comment over at my place but have been thinking about you. This was so beautifully written it brought tears to my eyes. I think of you and want to run across the border with huge hugs. And cookies. Or pancakes, as I’m making some right now. Sending you love and loads of strength. xox I adore you.

  13. Amber
    June 21, 2012 | 10:33 am

    Beautifully written. As I read this I could picture this emotion by emotion in my mind. Hugs..

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 24, 2012 | 9:31 pm

      you are such a great friend Amber! Thank you for always being here.

  14. Michelle
    June 21, 2012 | 4:27 pm
  15. Sarcasm Goddess
    June 24, 2012 | 8:37 pm

    Love you, girl. You WILL survive this.

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 24, 2012 | 9:07 pm

      Thank you!! Love you’re positive attitude.
      Please send bacon and shoes

  16. nikky44
    June 26, 2012 | 5:44 am

    My answer is YES to all your questions 🙁

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