An Open Letter to a Bitch

I wrote this, along with several other posts, on Monday, June 18, while in what I would discover was the worst mania I have ever experienced. My anxiety was very high, I was irritable, hadn’t slept enough for days, was making irrational decisions, and had a hard time concentrating. I found writing was the only thing that kept me focused.

Writing has been, and remains, my preferred method of communication.

As for the mania? It’s still hanging out.

 

Dear Anxiety, Bi Polar, and looming PPD.

I am attempting to understand the hold that you have over me. Over my happiness, the time I spend with my family, whether I am fully present with friends, at work, and with my daughter and soon to be husband.

I have sought help, consulted literature, spoken to survivors, and fully believed that I was cured. I have accepted medication, completed work books, advocated, and spread awareness through sharing my story.

Through sleepless nights and red swollen eyes I have begged you to leave me alone, to disappear, but you persist, circling me like a shark. You nip at my heels when I am happy, reminding me you’re always close, and take huge chunks of my light when I least expect it, pulling me into your depths.

This letter is to formally tell you I’ve had enough.

I’m exhausted. I’m tired of fighting you and beginning to get irritated.

You are annoying.

Bitch Please.

You’re a snarky whore that I no longer want in my life.

Gather your things, pack your bags, and find the door.

This relationship is poison and it is OVER.

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24 Responses to An Open Letter to a Bitch
  1. Mrs. Jen B
    June 22, 2012 | 5:41 am

    BIG HUG to you. Keep writing if it helps – we’re all here to read and support you.

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 24, 2012 | 9:30 pm

      Thank you Jen!!!

  2. Mark
    June 22, 2012 | 5:41 am

    Now put a stamp on it and mail it!
    m.

  3. Lady Estrogen
    June 22, 2012 | 6:14 am

    Love this – she has overstayed her welcome; bitch’s gotta go!

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 24, 2012 | 9:28 pm

      love you! xo

  4. Alison@Mama Wants This
    June 22, 2012 | 8:58 am

    Yes, this bitch has gotta go. Keep writing my friend. xo

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 24, 2012 | 9:28 pm

      Thank Alison! Your writing has been wonderful!

  5. katery
    June 22, 2012 | 1:25 pm

    stay strong mama, i’m right there with you.
    xoxo

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 24, 2012 | 9:17 pm

      you are so wonderful! Keep fighting

  6. Kimberly
    June 22, 2012 | 2:17 pm

    Stay strong, my friend. You can do this. We’re all here for you. xo

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 24, 2012 | 9:12 pm

      Thank you sweet Kimberly

  7. Stasha
    June 23, 2012 | 3:03 am

    You are strong. I know you are standing here, kicking the b….ches butt!

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 24, 2012 | 9:10 pm

      I’ve had a good weekend so I must be doing something right.

  8. Sarcasm Goddess
    June 24, 2012 | 7:26 pm

    Send that bitch my way and I’ll kick her in the vagina. Keep fighting, girl. Love you bunches!!!

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 24, 2012 | 9:08 pm

      xoxoxoxo… thanks noodle.

  9. Amber
    June 25, 2012 | 8:36 am

    You should take the letter, put it in a pan and set it on fire. Then with the ashes bury that thing. That should teach it a lesson.

  10. nikky44
    June 26, 2012 | 5:43 am

    I guess I should try writing a letter too 🙁

  11. Rach (DonutsMama)
    June 26, 2012 | 2:34 pm

    Sending an extra taco punch right now.

  12. Kimberly
    June 26, 2012 | 8:42 pm

    You forgot to mention that the bitch has to pay for your medical bills for giving you the clap.

  13. Galit Breen
    June 27, 2012 | 9:53 pm

    Thinking about you, and sending you love – lots of it! xo

  14. Leigh Ann
    July 2, 2012 | 9:30 am

    I love this. Not that you’re going through it, but that you’re fighting it with your best weapons — your heart, strength, and words. Keep at it. *hugs*

    • multitaskingmumma
      July 4, 2012 | 2:49 pm

      thank you sweet friend. love you

  15. Heather O.
    October 14, 2012 | 6:07 pm

    Been there, done that, got a closet full of t-shirts to prove it. Stay strong, don’t let the bitch win!

    • multitaskingmumma
      October 14, 2012 | 7:54 pm

      she didn’t win. Karma got her

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An Open Letter to a Bitch

I wrote this, along with several other posts, on Monday, June 18, while in what I would discover was the worst mania I have ever experienced. My anxiety was very high, I was irritable, hadn’t slept enough for days, was making irrational decisions, and had a hard time concentrating. I found writing was the only thing that kept me focused.

Writing has been, and remains, my preferred method of communication.

As for the mania? It’s still hanging out.

 

Dear Anxiety, Bi Polar, and looming PPD.

I am attempting to understand the hold that you have over me. Over my happiness, the time I spend with my family, whether I am fully present with friends, at work, and with my daughter and soon to be husband.

I have sought help, consulted literature, spoken to survivors, and fully believed that I was cured. I have accepted medication, completed work books, advocated, and spread awareness through sharing my story.

Through sleepless nights and red swollen eyes I have begged you to leave me alone, to disappear, but you persist, circling me like a shark. You nip at my heels when I am happy, reminding me you’re always close, and take huge chunks of my light when I least expect it, pulling me into your depths.

This letter is to formally tell you I’ve had enough.

I’m exhausted. I’m tired of fighting you and beginning to get irritated.

You are annoying.

Bitch Please.

You’re a snarky whore that I no longer want in my life.

Gather your things, pack your bags, and find the door.

This relationship is poison and it is OVER.

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24 Responses to An Open Letter to a Bitch
  1. Mrs. Jen B
    June 22, 2012 | 5:41 am

    BIG HUG to you. Keep writing if it helps – we’re all here to read and support you.

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 24, 2012 | 9:30 pm

      Thank you Jen!!!

  2. Mark
    June 22, 2012 | 5:41 am

    Now put a stamp on it and mail it!
    m.

  3. Lady Estrogen
    June 22, 2012 | 6:14 am

    Love this – she has overstayed her welcome; bitch’s gotta go!

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 24, 2012 | 9:28 pm

      love you! xo

  4. Alison@Mama Wants This
    June 22, 2012 | 8:58 am

    Yes, this bitch has gotta go. Keep writing my friend. xo

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 24, 2012 | 9:28 pm

      Thank Alison! Your writing has been wonderful!

  5. katery
    June 22, 2012 | 1:25 pm

    stay strong mama, i’m right there with you.
    xoxo

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 24, 2012 | 9:17 pm

      you are so wonderful! Keep fighting

  6. Kimberly
    June 22, 2012 | 2:17 pm

    Stay strong, my friend. You can do this. We’re all here for you. xo

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 24, 2012 | 9:12 pm

      Thank you sweet Kimberly

  7. Stasha
    June 23, 2012 | 3:03 am

    You are strong. I know you are standing here, kicking the b….ches butt!

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 24, 2012 | 9:10 pm

      I’ve had a good weekend so I must be doing something right.

  8. Sarcasm Goddess
    June 24, 2012 | 7:26 pm

    Send that bitch my way and I’ll kick her in the vagina. Keep fighting, girl. Love you bunches!!!

    • multitaskingmumma
      June 24, 2012 | 9:08 pm

      xoxoxoxo… thanks noodle.

  9. Amber
    June 25, 2012 | 8:36 am

    You should take the letter, put it in a pan and set it on fire. Then with the ashes bury that thing. That should teach it a lesson.

  10. nikky44
    June 26, 2012 | 5:43 am

    I guess I should try writing a letter too 🙁

  11. Rach (DonutsMama)
    June 26, 2012 | 2:34 pm

    Sending an extra taco punch right now.

  12. Kimberly
    June 26, 2012 | 8:42 pm

    You forgot to mention that the bitch has to pay for your medical bills for giving you the clap.

  13. Galit Breen
    June 27, 2012 | 9:53 pm

    Thinking about you, and sending you love – lots of it! xo

  14. Leigh Ann
    July 2, 2012 | 9:30 am

    I love this. Not that you’re going through it, but that you’re fighting it with your best weapons — your heart, strength, and words. Keep at it. *hugs*

    • multitaskingmumma
      July 4, 2012 | 2:49 pm

      thank you sweet friend. love you

  15. Heather O.
    October 14, 2012 | 6:07 pm

    Been there, done that, got a closet full of t-shirts to prove it. Stay strong, don’t let the bitch win!

    • multitaskingmumma
      October 14, 2012 | 7:54 pm

      she didn’t win. Karma got her

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