Look Back and Smile

My laughter escalated as the group of us giggled through class, and the professors face changed from that of concentration to annoyance as she looked at me with frustration. I had long been the loud one in the class, always looking for the opportunity to make others laugh and unfortunatley that moment was not the right one.

She approached our tables and asked me to meet her after class.

I could feel my stomach drop, I wasn’t a bad student, I did all of my work, paid attention, listened to lectures, participated, and handed in all my assignments on time. But I was loud. I wanted to be heard, I was funny and loved that people knew that about me, I wasn’t shy and had no problem standing out but I hadn’t learned how to reel it in yet. I was only 20 years old and wanted the attention of my peers, not my professors.

I bit my nails until the class ended, worried about what she would say, how she would react, and what my consequences would be. I didn’t mean to make her angry with me, and I really did want to succeed which would have been evident in my work.

At the end of class I followed her down to her office and stood quietly in front of her.

Her slim figure didn’t intimidate me, she was a mousy woman who I knew too much about, didn’t speak loud enough, and didn’t hold herslf with enough confidence.

She stood with her arms crossed and tilted her head to speak.

“Leighann, I don’t think you are a good fit for this program, I think you should re-consider it, take another program, look at other options. I don’t think you will succeed.”

I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. I had never received a low mark, participated in all group work, loved the program and was passionate about what I was learning, and gave her no reason other than my loud behaviour to think this way.

My only reaction?

“You’re wrong.”

And I would go on to prove her wrong.

Her words gave me a drive to show, not only her, but everyone that thought I couldn’t do it, that I could be successful in my chosen profession.

No matter how many people tell you you can’t there is always a will, a drive, inside of you that is telling you that you can. Follow your heart and don’t listen to the negativity of others. They’re placing their own fears onto you.

Go after your passion, be determined, and never give up.

And then look back and smile.

Because you did it.

 

 

 

 

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2 Responses to Look Back and Smile
  1. Jordan
    September 30, 2014 | 11:50 am

    And look at you now!!! I know the teacher you speak of;)
    I always enjoyed your humor and you out loud personality. If it weren’t for people like you half of us would have questions that were never asked. You stand up for what you believe in and that’s a character trait to be admired!!

  2. Mom
    October 4, 2014 | 3:25 pm

    I always learn something new when I read your Blog. I like the “sneak peaks” into your past that you did not share with us. You are the person I would like to be. Love you.

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Look Back and Smile

My laughter escalated as the group of us giggled through class, and the professors face changed from that of concentration to annoyance as she looked at me with frustration. I had long been the loud one in the class, always looking for the opportunity to make others laugh and unfortunatley that moment was not the right one.

She approached our tables and asked me to meet her after class.

I could feel my stomach drop, I wasn’t a bad student, I did all of my work, paid attention, listened to lectures, participated, and handed in all my assignments on time. But I was loud. I wanted to be heard, I was funny and loved that people knew that about me, I wasn’t shy and had no problem standing out but I hadn’t learned how to reel it in yet. I was only 20 years old and wanted the attention of my peers, not my professors.

I bit my nails until the class ended, worried about what she would say, how she would react, and what my consequences would be. I didn’t mean to make her angry with me, and I really did want to succeed which would have been evident in my work.

At the end of class I followed her down to her office and stood quietly in front of her.

Her slim figure didn’t intimidate me, she was a mousy woman who I knew too much about, didn’t speak loud enough, and didn’t hold herslf with enough confidence.

She stood with her arms crossed and tilted her head to speak.

“Leighann, I don’t think you are a good fit for this program, I think you should re-consider it, take another program, look at other options. I don’t think you will succeed.”

I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. I had never received a low mark, participated in all group work, loved the program and was passionate about what I was learning, and gave her no reason other than my loud behaviour to think this way.

My only reaction?

“You’re wrong.”

And I would go on to prove her wrong.

Her words gave me a drive to show, not only her, but everyone that thought I couldn’t do it, that I could be successful in my chosen profession.

No matter how many people tell you you can’t there is always a will, a drive, inside of you that is telling you that you can. Follow your heart and don’t listen to the negativity of others. They’re placing their own fears onto you.

Go after your passion, be determined, and never give up.

And then look back and smile.

Because you did it.

 

 

 

 

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2 Responses to Look Back and Smile
  1. Jordan
    September 30, 2014 | 11:50 am

    And look at you now!!! I know the teacher you speak of;)
    I always enjoyed your humor and you out loud personality. If it weren’t for people like you half of us would have questions that were never asked. You stand up for what you believe in and that’s a character trait to be admired!!

  2. Mom
    October 4, 2014 | 3:25 pm

    I always learn something new when I read your Blog. I like the “sneak peaks” into your past that you did not share with us. You are the person I would like to be. Love you.

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