Category Archives: Love

16 Year Old Self

Dear 16 year old self, You know me; very well, we share the same face, skin, eyes, body… Oh that body. Wouldn’t you love to have a different one? Well, appreciate the one you have now. You are gorgeous and don’t see how beautiful you really are. Weight? No. Stand tall, find clothes that flatter…

The Girl is 4

What do you want for your birthday? “A bike, another bike, a bear, a big bear, a giraffe, a huge one, and everything.” For my daughter’s 4th birthday we are celebrating with a bowling party. There will be bumper pads, bowling shoes, children, cake, presents, and most likely some sort of foot fungus. A far cry…

To the Aquarium #iPPP

This past weekend we took our daughter to the Ripley’s Aquarium! We were packed, our friend’s picked us up, and we were off to the big city!! There were warnings that the crowds would be big, the lines would be long, and we may lose our children in the chaos. But we thought, “It’s WORTH…

The Swaying of my Soul

Her legs drape over my lap where they used to tuck in perfectly, and her head slides down to the crook of my arm instead of up on my shoulder where she used to tuck it. She cries tears of exhaustion and we’ve left her room and have resorted to rocking. The grey plush blanket…

This is that Space

The room was dimly lit; meant to calm? Make the monitors easier to read? Create a somber environment? I had disrobed and was sitting in the middle of the table, my small family anxiously standing off to the side. We had just been told I was suffering a miscarriage. My mind twisted with what if’s….

One

When I first found out I was pregnant for the second time I scoured the internet for great deals on maternity clothes. I wanted to be ready for my expanding belly and shrinking clothing. I wanted to have things to wear and feel good about my growing bump. The bag of unused, never worn, neatly…

Robocop vs the Mermaid

After watching Robocop this weekend my husband and I had a converstation about what we would like to be should a bomb blow us up and the only option left was to turn us into a robot. Me: Just so you’re aware, if I’m ever blown up and the possibility of my becoming a robot…

That Last Bit

I thought I was ready. When I looked at your grown up almost four year old face staring at me begging me to take my turn on the boardgame. I thought I was ready to send you out into the world, with your backpack full and lunch packed the night before, this September you’d be…

The Wheels on the Bus

The phone rang only once before someone on the other end picked up. “Main Office” GAH! Main Office? I hadn’t called a Main Office since high school. Panic overwhelmed me and I realized why I was calling, the weight of it heavy in my throat, I forgot my name, felt tears sting my eyes, and couldn’t find my words….