Category Archives: Mental Health

How Do You Escape From Your Own Brain?

When I say I’m normal. That I’m fine and don’t need meds. That I should start to wean off or go cold turkey because I’ve been on this ride for so long it’s old to me and I’m no longer experiencing the thrill. That’s when my brain reminds me that I still suffer. That’s when…

Why Trigger Warnings Are So Important

The other day, for the first time in my mental health journey, I understood, fully, what it felt like to be triggered. Really triggered. I attended a workshop on mental illness that did not come with a trigger warning. Of course, prior to my attending I did not know I would need a warning. I…

Closure…tied up

Why did you do this? Why didn’t your husband do this? He’s weak! He’s selfish! He’s afraid! He doesn’t support you! No.  Wrong.  Ultimately the decision to have my tubes “tied” this past week (although this is far from what happens and if that is what truly happened it would have been much more pleasant)…

When Bipolar Sucks

Looking out into the rain and over the pools of water forming in the parking lot I try to claw myself out of the gray mass that’s slowly surrounding my brain. “I’m good.” I tell myself, over and over. Remember at Christmas when you had no energy? When you couldn’t get up to do anything?…

This isn’t Goodbye…

I’ve been on vacation for the past week and I’ve been loving it. The time with my daughter, the sleeping in, the activities, and the warmth of summer. My daughter is growing up fast, becoming more and more independent and has a huge personality that sucks people in. While I was watching her one day…

The Worst Day Ever

We rode our bikes furiously down the sidewalk. We were 12 so the safest place for us was there, where pedestrians walked. Pedestrian safety wasn’t on our minds as we raced each other through the narrow spaces, around signs, through people, and over blocks of cement, we were young and we had the wind in our hair….

On a Scale of 1 -10

  Her office was stifling, small, and reminded me of the 1970’s. The chairs were placed directly across from her desk which held a single computer and several files, one of which was mine. She had combed over it, she said, before I had arrived. She was my replacement doctor while my own doctor was…

Grateful for YOU

It’s quiet in the house, there’s only the sound of the fridge running in the back ground and the train in the distance. I’ve had a lot of time to reflect, to express my thoughts, and to rest. I needed to. And I’m feeling grateful. I’m overwhelmed with gratitude towards my family and friends who…

Through the Kaleidoscope

She snuggles in close and throws her hand up into my hair, a habit she’s had since infancy. Her purple princess dress spreads out across my lap while the sounds of cartoons fill my ears. I sip my coffee and scratch endlessly at the hives that have appeared all over my body since the medication…

Category Archives: Mental Health

How Do You Escape From Your Own Brain?

When I say I’m normal. That I’m fine and don’t need meds. That I should start to wean off or go cold turkey because I’ve been on this ride for so long it’s old to me and I’m no longer experiencing the thrill. That’s when my brain reminds me that I still suffer. That’s when…

Why Trigger Warnings Are So Important

The other day, for the first time in my mental health journey, I understood, fully, what it felt like to be triggered. Really triggered. I attended a workshop on mental illness that did not come with a trigger warning. Of course, prior to my attending I did not know I would need a warning. I…

Closure…tied up

Why did you do this? Why didn’t your husband do this? He’s weak! He’s selfish! He’s afraid! He doesn’t support you! No.  Wrong.  Ultimately the decision to have my tubes “tied” this past week (although this is far from what happens and if that is what truly happened it would have been much more pleasant)…

When Bipolar Sucks

Looking out into the rain and over the pools of water forming in the parking lot I try to claw myself out of the gray mass that’s slowly surrounding my brain. “I’m good.” I tell myself, over and over. Remember at Christmas when you had no energy? When you couldn’t get up to do anything?…

This isn’t Goodbye…

I’ve been on vacation for the past week and I’ve been loving it. The time with my daughter, the sleeping in, the activities, and the warmth of summer. My daughter is growing up fast, becoming more and more independent and has a huge personality that sucks people in. While I was watching her one day…

The Worst Day Ever

We rode our bikes furiously down the sidewalk. We were 12 so the safest place for us was there, where pedestrians walked. Pedestrian safety wasn’t on our minds as we raced each other through the narrow spaces, around signs, through people, and over blocks of cement, we were young and we had the wind in our hair….

On a Scale of 1 -10

  Her office was stifling, small, and reminded me of the 1970’s. The chairs were placed directly across from her desk which held a single computer and several files, one of which was mine. She had combed over it, she said, before I had arrived. She was my replacement doctor while my own doctor was…

Grateful for YOU

It’s quiet in the house, there’s only the sound of the fridge running in the back ground and the train in the distance. I’ve had a lot of time to reflect, to express my thoughts, and to rest. I needed to. And I’m feeling grateful. I’m overwhelmed with gratitude towards my family and friends who…

Through the Kaleidoscope

She snuggles in close and throws her hand up into my hair, a habit she’s had since infancy. Her purple princess dress spreads out across my lap while the sounds of cartoons fill my ears. I sip my coffee and scratch endlessly at the hives that have appeared all over my body since the medication…