All of the Babies

So you’ve decided not to have anymore children. For whatever reason. Maybe you have enough. Maybe you’ve HAD enough. Maybe you’re blessed and your heart is full and you are happy with the number you’re at, or you’re like me and you’re heart wants more, just one, please, but that’s not happening so you’re adjusting,…

Mom Super Powers Gone Wrong

When super powers backfire…. Her: Mommy, I can’t get this play doh out! Me: I can help Her: No you can’t. It’s too hard. Me: I can, I have super powers. Her: What kind. Me: Mom super powers. Her: Yah? Me: Yup, when you become a mom you get them. Her: What sort? Me: Like…

Today I’m Angry

Anger. You know that kind that flashes in front of your face? the kind that makes you WRITE IN ALL CAPS? The kind that makes you pump out emails you would have never written but you send them off with the beat of your heart heavy in your ears? Yes. That. That kind of anger. It pulses…

The Swaying of my Soul

Her legs drape over my lap where they used to tuck in perfectly, and her head slides down to the crook of my arm instead of up on my shoulder where she used to tuck it. She cries tears of exhaustion and we’ve left her room and have resorted to rocking. The grey plush blanket…

Welcome to the Stream Team

When I watch a TV series I get a little addicted. I like to watch from start to finish in marathon style, so watching it on TV makes it hard for my addictive personality. I want to sit with a treat, a drink, and my husband in front of the television and watch episode after…

One Last Bite

Remember when I was getting healthy and was focused on what I was putting into my body? When I was planning meals, making a healthy lunch, not eating after 6, and walking every day? That went to hell. I feel bloated and nauseous and a little dizzy. Don’t stare. It’s just the half of chocolate…

Making Tax Time Easy

Around these parts it’s the time of year I usually dread. It’s the headache, bounce my head against the table, cry for help, throw my hands up in the air time of year. Tax time. I’ve never done my own taxes because it intimidates me and I’ve never had the proper tools to do it….

Dreaming of Unicorns

Each night I slide softly into my side of the bed, snuggle down deep into the covers, pull them up to my chin, stick one leg out and drift off to sleep. Ha. Who are we kidding. I wish that’s how I went to sleep. But I’m bipolar so sleep is like the unicorn everyone…

One of the Good Ones

Dearest Teacher, Remember me? Sitting front row in your class, looking to my left, then my right, waiting for my “peeps” to file in. Yup! It was my first year of college and I was determined to make it memorable. I was 20 years old, had been shy all through highschool, flying under the radar,…